Yijie ND AsCOT-- FINAL

Thanks For readin all my JUNK For the last 6 months!
This is my final post...

This is dedicated to all my readers out there.

I wanna thank u.,,
For all that u done...
I might not noe u....
but fuck it was fun..
the time has come...
for the time to run..
It ends here..


I'm not in the mood to rite,
I'm in the mood to fight.
i wanna tell u how pissed i am
i wanna say fuck u damn,,
last night,
my form teacher,
i wouldnt say who,
complained to my parents,
i didnt have a clue.
say worried bout me.
WELL ok see.
according to them,
some parent saw my blog.
found it offensive
and hate it alot.
so it got sent to YJ.
where they read it like mail.
ok sure..
but half of the shit i write here,
aint even real.
u tink i really worship a devil?
am i at that level?
cut myself to sleep every nite,
out of minds, out of sight?
skip lectures?
i'm a good kid
to promote there are measures.
Even an IDIOT can tell this BLOG AINT REAL.
WAKE UP MAN keep me thrilled.
wad rubbish i say i'm demonic everyday
in reality,
i always go home on my knees i pray,
i would giv thanks for wad i got today,
i would sit alone and get stressed rite away.

I say i hate 127?
in truth i LOVE them
and they LOVE ME OK?
they even celebrated my birthday.
do u clowns REALLY THINK i enter skool through a drain???
WTH???
IS that LOGICAL?
USE YR BRAIN.
And as for chinese HW.
LOts of peop dun do it
STOP picking on me
u'r not a good teacher
i don wait to blow it.
u r annoying me.
really.
i skip lecture? check attendence lar
it will show if i'm there duh..
u take my blog as a source,
to see my mood
a NUTCASE witout remose.
is this source reliable??
i have abided to YJ's rules.
i didnt keep my earrings
i noe wad the DM meaned
and i've kept my nails clean.
i got my shirt tucked
isit just luck?
don make me feel tickle...
coz i really am a good pupil.

As for that loser who file the blog to YJ
if u don like
I wad i write
AND if u find wad i write simply bites,
SIMPLE
y dont u STOP READING LOR,
and go watch BARNEY THE DINOSAUR.
it will suit u better.

ANd thank u readers.
my blog ends here.
thanks to these peop,
i wont blog no more,
let me make it clear.
THiS is the final post.
thanks for following this far.
but u need to stop.
i aint a star.
IT ENDS HERE
GOODBYE FOREVER!!!

SPEICAL THANKS TO THE TEACHER WHO COMPLAINED STRIGHT TO MY MOM AND NOT BOTHERING TO CONSULT ME 1st!!!!
I HOPE U LIKE MY POST.

This week

I feel stressed...
u got the feeling that u noe alot...
when actually u dont?
well this is wad its like.
i did my math tutorial and i tot i noe how 2 do..
then it was like WRONG!!
so weird.. Maths is damn stressful lar...
i spent like 4 hours to do 4 daMN QUESTIONS
THATS HOW BAD IT IS...
then, there was my performance wit aaron on lit nite..
i was SO outta touch mann,,,
STRESS..
we got two weeks to practise BUT we practised like a total of 1.5 hrs at the most... MANNN<<<
we could like do so much better lar...
i actually scribbled the lyrics on my hand in case i screw up..
losing was wad i deserved i guess...
compared to how they practised and rehersed,,,
ours was nothin...
yeah... GD job peanut peop..
but yeah..
it was fun though..
whenn was the last time i performed??
CVD i tink... LoL
yeah..
then,
there is a new way outta school...
some 1 beat me to sawing a hole in the fence..
a new 'back door' the solution to leaving school before 1.30...
i wanted to cut 1 so i can make a monopoly on leaving school early...
it'll make me lots of money lar...
I"LL BE RICH>>>
but NOOOO>>>> some 1 beat me to it... ZzZzZzZ

Anyway i would LOVE to blame God for all this..
but yeah.. maybe this is the crap i need to go through to promote...
so hmmm.. i hope his perfect plan works,,,

Runscape is balls,,,

i just spent five mins tryin to log into blogger...
coz i forgot the @ in ascot_chong@hotmail.com...... Balls really.....
anyway.. last few days was balls..ile.
coz like i got hell lotta work to do..
1. maths file
2. lit file.
3. Maths HW, (2 tutorials)..
4. Lit Oral thing...
5. GP's Rj AQ and summery.
6. Econs test on Mon,
7. Chinese Hw... ( no intension of doin but that wee punk becoming VERY good friends wit mom.)

Balls really...
last time i was this lost i was REALLY doin badly
so i gotta do somethin bout it.
THen this week i was like late coz i left my wallet at home lar...
i climb though some !@#$% drain to escape the gate and got !@#$% dirty.
well it beats getin inhouse suspension LoL,,,
i toss leaves into the drain lar..
CONFIRM CHOKE.
SORRY DRAIN CLEANING MAN!!!!
but sacrifices got to be made....
LoL,,,,,,,,
my life noww is like..
SCHOOL... LAN.... HOME.... SLEEP,,,,
I LUV mY WEEKENDS...
Yj is killing me really//
OH WELL,,,
BACK ta STUDY.
BALLS........



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F.E.A.R

Frightened Enough About Results

Again,, i feel the familiar feeling that i'm gonna screw up.
The bad tension in the balloons as they start to blow up.
Its gettin scary..
as my marks plunged..
No longer happy...
As i threw up my lunch..
Its the 2 passes and a sub
Thats the marks in order to go up
i'm just not gettin it..
Sure I don HAV SSP
But i'm failin bit by bit

I got a ZERO for maths...
I MEAN... WTH is ZAT?
I'm just not as Strong no more,,
AND yup thats sad...

My insecurities r eatin me alive...
As i try ta keep up,
As i wait to revive,
Hey LAX MAN... FRIENDS 1st//
OK SURE.... BUT
My relationships wit peop seem only to get worse.
i'm unattached again...
i liked someone else...
But tat someone doesnt like me...
so i'm stuck wit myself...
My Bonds wit my friends,
might seem strong...
But in reality,,,,
U couldnt be more wrong..
We hang out,
just to crap and play,
BUT we cant depend on one another..
We hav really nothin left to say...
BUT WHO AM I TO COMMENT??

I got a ZERO for maths...
I MEAN... WTH is ZAT?
I'm just not as Strong no more,,
AND yup thats sad...

OkOk... Its not that bad...
its just that i'm turnin into a loner,
Something tat couldnt have happened sooner...
I'm becoming a loser only me myself noes...
i'm spend my whole year bein an idiot,
not wantin to study...
BUT only noe i realise
that coz of this shit i might actually die...
NOW i'm in trouble,
and i need to MUG on the double,
COZ i'm stress tat i'll tumble..
and i take it out on my parents...
the peop who cares the most...........
i do feel bad...
yes,, i luv my dad..
and my mom..
and i regret screamin at em...
SO SORRYYYYYY<<<<<<<
THIS IS 1 BAD story...
BUT then again..
theres still the pain...
THE thoughts that i'll retain..
AND THE FACT that...


I got a ZERO for maths...
I MEAN... WTH is ZAT?
I'm just not as Strong no more,,
AND yup thats sad...

I DONT INTEND TO SIT BY,
And watch myself die...
YK>>> its time to mug..
GOD HELP ME.........


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27th of July-- lazy to rhyme...

today was really bz.......
I didn't wanna go skool actually... coz i wanted to visit Serene 1st. Been lookin forward to visit since teacher's day last year.. the plan was to MC my way outta skool but i told myself that i would only do that if i was late 4 skool today.... but apparently God wanted me in skool.. i woke up late intentionally, took like 45 mins to bath walk REAL slow to the bus stop, but the bus was extra fast sia...... then the MRT like bullet train...@#$%....
okok anyway,, she wouldnt be happy to noe that i skipped skool to visit her anyway so.. i went skool... haiz....
WHAO... lessons were like so SIAN!! PE... which i ponned to go eat breakfast wit my band. then Econs which the teacher asked me qns that i cant ans... THANK GOD... i blabbered somethin the teacher tot WAS the ans and i got off...
THEN LIT.. GOSH... kana SHELLED IN LECTURE by that ang mo.. ZzZzZz... oh well...i dont hate him.. i tink i gotta improve on my hack care look.. must look like i care from now on...
Chinese wee punk was like KPKB,,, keep complain about my homework... haiz,,
okok
then the day picked up....
celebrated my bday wit 127............
quite cool.. mr apple... okok... another nick..LoL,,,
yup.. thx....

OK then i went to c Serene... the bus ride was damn long, i got stung by mosquitoes, secrificed my lan time, BUT WHEN I SAW HER, it was worth it............ i lost her address again... so i had to comb the entire block 4 her..
yup
but i found it... again...

its real touchin to see the notes i written for her all those years still there in the card case i left there years ago... i saw the letters i wrote were like rotting and the best part was that she kept it wit her the last 2 years... i threw em away though... the letters were pretty deformed.. yup so i replaced them wit a new 1 today,,,,
i sang "this love" and "stacy's mom" for her this time... LoL.,. my singing probably sucked but ok... long as she likes it.. hahazz.... cant wait to see her on her bday... again.. its a date..LoL

then rushed home, showered and rushed to marist for founder's day/...
only 4 of us went back but ok.. GLEN & DONOVAN & MAURIS came too!!! LoLL.. WE keep singing like some drunkards LoL... U GUYS ROCK MY !@$% world!!!!! hahazzzzzz

then damn horrible lar... maris stella's only canteen pride is the 10 vending machines we have... now all those 10 machines sell is 100plus,, MANNNNNNN......... and they upped the price tooo......... TRAGIC! yeah... the buffet was so hoorible ...... nonya manis SUCKS!!! but i miss the horrble food they served and the crap i ate for 10 !@$# years in my!@#$ life so yeah nonya manis ROCKS MY !@@#$$ world...
and Gerdrad looks so COOL NOW... whao... peop do change.....
SOO COOLL<<< witchin simpsons wit them soon... LoL...
AsCOTthursday, YK, yijie, Mr Apple, Slim Shady......



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Christ, is actually very aggressive( sermons without rhymes)

i learned a very important lesson today...
i met up with 1 one of my church peop, and i finally understood...
being Christian isnt about being a mild, quiet and a goody-two-shoes...
Christianity, is like being like Christ...
and Christ, is actually very aggressive.

Thats rite... he is short tempered, no nonsense and the problem child....
Y do i say that???
ok.. he might be described as the "lamb" of God,
he might have said to turn the other cheek when someone slaps u,
he also seen usually playing with kids and helping the poor...

BUT!!!! if u read the Bible properly, he was recorded flipping tables in the temples of God.
and he was recorded twice... yup, on different gospels, but if u read properly enough, u would notice they were on completely different occasions....
Do u actually tink he only did it twice??? i tink he probably went around Israel flipping as many tables of merchants, in the temples and screaming "u Hypocrites!" at all those peop...

imagine.. in todays context, one day, u see this guy in a robe, with a huge beard, simply walkin into church during yr worship and smashing all yr guitars and fancy equipment,,, then pointing a finger at u and screamed.. "u hypocrite"...
that would be totally out of line... insane and cool... wont it....

u see, christ is indeed aggressive...
but he was aggressive in the rite way.. controlled aggression,,,
peop nowadays indeed have aggression,,, but they end up bashing their wives, abusing their kids,
beating each other up for retarded reasons...
that was reckless aggression, which is wrong....

yup.. so being Christian is actually about being aggressive, in the rite way... and being passionate bout wad we believe in..

LoL,, i donno y i'm writing this,,, but ok yeah.. its abit boring i noe.. but at leat u peop don hav 2 do yr quiet time 2 day...
amen,,


hahaz


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The Starry Wednesday Night

A Simple Song..........


I remember when,
I donno wad 2 say,
When she first spoke to me,
in.. BK,
When she commented that i ate funny,
The outing of P23,
When she sat just opposite me.
and when we went back together on the MRT,
i thought we talked well,
Does all this ring a bell?
When we met 6 months ago?
When all this info doesnt seem too old.

Baby, i wouldnt die,
if u don want me,
Maybe, i might cry,
coz u don need me,

Surely i wont die,
u don treat me right,
But mannn i wanna sigh,
This Starry Wednesday Night....

Yes, when the info doesnt seem so old.
Unlike now, when we start,
ignoring our presences, turning so cold.
I guessed then,
i didnt do it well,
when she left the class,
i kinda gave hell.
i thought she needed time,
And i asked too early,
And all the trash in my rhymes,
it came clearly,
that she wanted someone else.

Baby, i wouldnt die,
if u don want me,
Maybe, i might cry,
coz u don need me,

Surely i wont die,
u don treat me right,
But mannn i wanna sigh,
This Starry Wednesday Night....

After two months,
one which i spent chasing someone else,
i find myself back where i started,
which is really weird,
and freakingly retarded.
i was really glad she unblocked me,
but we r still silent.
sometimes i wish she would just come online and scold me
like the one she ranted on me,
saying that she bitched about me.
I really think she's real pretty,
Real kind,
And i do thank God,
i can again see her online.
she might still want someone else,
and i seemed to become crippled.
i hav nothing left,
but the pleasure is simple,
i guess we can just be friends.

Baby, i wouldnt die,
if u don want me,
Maybe, i might cry,
coz u don need me,

Surely i wont die,
u don treat me right,
But mannn i wanna sigh,
This Starry Wednesday Night....






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Words without rhymes 3

I Never thought i would say this..
GOD ROCKS!!!!!!
it was SSOOOOOO rite to go back to christianity...
AMEN.... I LOVE U MANNNN!!!!!!!!!!!
GOSH... i tot i just killed myself.. but it worked at least...
AMEN
HALLEUYA..(i tink its spelled like that.,)
LoL.... After wad u blessed me with if i EVER turn satanic again,
I wnt u to personally remove all the talents i hav..
like make me never rhyme again or something..
LoL,,
Yeah... GOD's GOT it goin on!!!!!
love ya lots
Yijiendascot...


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Fuck

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!
WELCOME THE THURSDAY NITE'S SHOW!!!!
WE ARE PROUD TO PRESENT OUR NEW HIT SINGLE!
A YK and THURSDaY PRODuCTION.

FUCK IT,
U STUPID DAMN BITCH,
FUCK YOU,
NO, i dont care how u feel,
FUCK OFF,
Can u fuckers just GET LOST?
if u peop die, i wont even mourn,
so can u retards JUST PASS ON?

Hi, i'm YK,
and i RELI have nothin better ta say,
so i'll talk again all bout the crap in yj.
somethin happened,
that, pissed me alot.
regarding my PW group,
postin a FUCKin report.
"The group doesnt like yr attitude",
"U give slipshot work"
"U dissed us dude"

ok mann, sure,
but that was crap,
u fuckers make no sense,
SO SHUT YR TRAP,
slipshot EVENT work?
Work tat FLOPPED?
FUCK U, THAT EVENT wasnt EVEN MY JOB,
i got a report filed against me for covering yr asses.

someone cocked up,
and i helped take.
i fucked up,
coz helping was a mistake.
ok now u noe wad i wont do in the future,
i dissed u?? SHIT
FOr that PW shit i actually skipped lecture.
AND WATZ MORE i asked if i can leave.
I SWEAR u said yes.
NOW U SAY U DIDNT???
YR WORDS ARE A MESS..
As chaotic as some retarded fuck fest.
IF U SHITHOLES HAV GOT ANY FUCKED UP BRAINS,
U COULD HAV CALLED ME BACK, WITH THOSE FUCKED UP PHONES,
WHICH U FUCKERS USE TO MAKE U FUCK UP MOAN
I don participate in group discussions, like the other group's clucks?
OK so u peop tink after the report i will talk to u FUCKS?

FUCK IT,
U STUPID DAMN BITCH,
FUCK YOU,
NO, i dont care how u feel,
FUCK OFF,
Can u fuckers just GET LOST?
if u peop die, i wont even mourn,
so can u retards JUST PASS ON?

U peop were damn good.
all 3 of u had guts to file a report against me
BUT non had the BALLS TO FUCKIN TELL ME.
not till it was filed at least,
bUT WTF u fucks talk like my work doesnt exist.
WADEVA,
I DO THANK THE GUY WHO TOLD ME ABOUT IT
THE REST OF U FUCKTARDS CAN GO EAT SHIT
BUT HE TOLD ME ONLY AFTER IT WAS TOO LATE.
THE REST OF U FUCKS ARE BETTER OF DEAD.
THATS RITE.
IGNORE ME.
PRETEND U DONT NOE ME>
ACT LIKE NOTHING HaPPENED.
TATS WHAT U FUCKERS ARE GOOD AT, AINT IT>

AFTER WRITING THIS,
I DONT CARE IF U FLAME ME ON YR BLOGS,
I DON CARE IF U call me some DOG.
I DON GIVE A FUCK, if u file me a lawsuit.
U CAN TRY.
BUT I'm praying to GOD, hOPING U DIE.

FUCK IT,
U STUPID DAMN BITCH,
FUCK YOU,
NO, i dont care how u feel,
FUCK OFF,
Can u fuckers just GET LOST?
if u peop die, i wont even mourn,
so can u retards JUST PASS ON?


HAHA... I'm just playin guys.....I LOVE MY PW GROUP...


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RUBBISH. UTTER RUBBISH

YK nd thursday,
presents
A compilation of ranting.
Rubbish, Trash and random Lamenting.
ok Peop, Thx for Readin.

Hello,
u confused fellow,
let me take u into a world,
a world where chaos Twirls,
A world sick enough,
Mad enough to make u hurl.
a world wit desions made,
a world, a struggle with fate,
a world wit God in Heaven,
a class named 127.

I'm sick, in the mind.
Insane.. One of a kind.
Freaky, at the same time picky,
I tink billy's excited,
at a light thats flicky
Hey my life is gettin bleaky,
Coz of this damn raps,
Sick of pretending to be some blacky
Make my name Dicky,
Sick of bein YK,
AsCOTthursday,
He aint no longer Satanic anyway,
Back to christ he says,
But will he stay?

I mean the block test was bad,
I didnt study
dont get me wrong
I didnt blog coz i was bored
Bored of blogging
Bored of talking,
Bored of answering messages that really mean NOTHING.
Bored of slitin my wrist,
Watchin my blood clotting,
Bored of writin my rhymes,
Bored of being emo all the time,

I'm sick, in the mind.
Insane.. One of a kind.
shit i already wrote this,
Its the same line,
I tink goin after them wasnt blind,
Really, I tink both of em r real fine.
u peop shouldnt be so emo really,
chill. no matter what happens to u peop,
i got it worse, so if u r readin this,
u can come lament wit me on my tagboard.
OH WAIT I DONT GOT NO DAMN TAGBOARD.
Coz i sick of the ROT,
i see there,
With all the STARES,
With all the glares,
DAMN NICE.
LiKE STEAMED RICE AND DAMN PASSERBYs.

PEOP LOVE ME,
BUT MOSTLY THEY HATE ME.
coz i'm arrogant.
the damn pride, the size of !@#$ing elephant.
The hate me coz YK's HORRIBLE LOOKING!
LATE FOR SKOOL WIT WEE PUNK LOOKING.
BUT Me Thursday, making fun at peop's expense
i mean damn.
I just did a whole song nd made no sense








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yijie: What i Once Was

As i closed my eyes and thought. i was myself evolve so much in the pass 6 mths. i'm turning.. i can tell.. slowly.. back to this monstrosity... What i Once Was..
People change.
do u find it strange.
i was like this once,
i smoke, i swear,
i hate, i stare,
i sin, didnt care,
i worshiped the devil,
with a Satanic flare,
only diff is,
which i am proud to say,
i used to cut myself,
but i never did it again today.
As i looked at the mirror and stared at AsCOT's eyes,
is this guy i see,
the real me i wanna be?
someone, wit no remorse,
no pity.
i'm sorry for wad i did jess.
it was so wrong.
i aint any longer the freaky halfwit who rhymes, does dumb tings and laughs about it.
I'm now vengeful, dark, emo, hated, Sad and morbit.
i feel aint just yijie anymore,
I'm also, YK,
and this AsCOTthursday.
I hate wad i've become,
Y hav i turned so numb.
i regret it now.
And i will turn back somehow.
The AsCOTthursday 2007
Leavin Satanism so i can gotta heaven

I removed the tagboard too...
1. coz i'm afarid of flamin
2. i figured i gave too much of a shit wad peop around me tink.
thats why i changed to this.

\anyway. Thanks for readin my junk

AsCOT: What doesnt kill u sometimes makes u wish it did.

I start to ponder,
as my holidays waste away,
i start to wonder,
with every passing day.

u see, As i was running,
i got hit by two motorbikes two days ago,
one after another.
the pain was unbearable,
And as it collided,
i watched my life flash by.
what hav i accomplished?
dont get me wrong,
it not that i want to die,
But in my current state,
sometimes existing,
makes u wanna cry.
As the bikes knocked me over,
i shut my eyes,
N readied my self for whats about to happen.
I WAS GOING TO DIE.
I shut my eyes,
And felt the impact's weapon.
I WAS GOING TO DIE.
I shut my eyes,
and wondered if i could make it to heaven,
I WAS GOING TO DIE.
I fell backwards as pain flooded my ribs,
and blood spilled from my veins,
My head collapsed on to this cold hard road,
I opened my eyes.
The bike hit me,
and i fell.
I was bleedin,
I could tell.
I was alive,
I skipped death's bell,
I was back in this body,
back in hell.

I survived.
The same way i took everything that got thrown at me by life before
I stared at the night's sky,
and wondered if i could still take anymore.

" r u alright?"
asked the bagadashi worker,
the one tat knocked me down.

"yeah."
i replied,
with a face that wore a frown.

I got up and continued runnin,
Though i was bleedin,
The guy stared at me,
But i started speedin.

U peop would not know how it feels like,
The way u look death in the face,
The way u get hit by a bike.

Isit the same as rushin into a fire?
when the situation is dire.
inorder to save yr mom u rush in head on?
I don noe. FUCK it... lets do it with don.

yijie: The Dark Dark Walls..

As i opened my weary eyes,
Lookin at the Dark Dark Walls,
And as i muttered every line.
I looked in to the mirror,
To clear my badly twisted mind.
The guy who stared back,
Thursday looked ready to crack,
It ends tonite,
He said,
The day it all died.

Its pointless i replied,
I have lost all will to fight.

YK u suck.
U screw up and blame yr luck.

Shut up.
It aint my fault at all,
Is it my fault if everyone wants me to fall?

YK, trust me u will succeed never more.

FUCK!
as i shattered the mirror all over the floor

The immense hate that filled
these empty Dark, Dark Walls,

"never more" He said again
My my brain churned to form new pain.
The same pain that seemed to drive me insane.
she hates me.
Or at least does not like me or thursday.
Today is special,
But i'm not wishin happy bday.
It will end tonite.
Like he said,
the day it all died.
I will not give her this call.
I was lost,
Between These Dark Dark Walls.

"Never more" He repeated.
As the blades of the night cut me,
And i bleeded.
My whole life,
I have never failed this badly.
have all i hav done so far just be folly?
Am i just a screwup in reality?
Or r these just words of my split personalities.
what will life after her have install?
Questions,
As i sat alone in these Dark, Dark Walls.














ok. 127. This is my highly anticipated reply. i already said i don hate all of u, just a number. I want to thank the taggers and the person who typed the speech in the class blog which had disappeared for some reason. anyway, u peop r not the peop i hav problems wit. i noe u guys mean well though. i reli don noe wad else to say so i will end here.

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Public service announcement

I got somethin to say. I just realised who prank called me, and its not the click that i thought it was so sorry. i just flamed the wrong peop. pai sei, as for tat prank calling idiot whose name i will not mention, amber kindly TELL ME u prank called next time u prank call me. thank u amber much appreciated.

yijie: Miss Leong

Alot of people ask me... What do i miss in marist stella.. Nothin.. Nothin is left there for me.. My friends have moved on, I had no feelings for the school, I hated my life there. I hate the teaching staff.. no,,,.. I hated almost all of the teaching stuff.. all but one.. But she left.. Up till today i still remembered her death, i upseted her, and i hated myself for it. Maybe thats y today, i still remain this morbit. Miss leong.. I'll miss u. This poem is 4 u...

My drinkin habit caused it to happen,
As i brought wine to school to play,
i didnt mean for it to happen,
how did things turn out this way.
As i looked back on the biggest regret of my life,
I really dont know what to say.
the very way u left me,
on my 15th birthday.
Y did u have to go?
it was so sudden,
i never really healed from that blow,
as my soul remained burdened.
was it the heart attack that wendy told me,
or was the cause of yr death really just me?
I'm really sorry,
i didnt mean it,
i would hav given anything,
for a chance to change it.
as i go to yr urn tear after tear,
i'll ponder,
how u once told me god will take u to havean,
Clear after Clear,
right now though,
i tink i hav made god mad,
fear after fear,
that i wont see u again in eternalty,
coz i maght be goin to hell,
but i'll miss u lots
dear after dear,
day after day,
month after month,
year after year.
i regret not apologising when i had the chance,
i hope u noe just how i feel.
if only u stayed a little more,
dear teacher,
the only lady i adore,
i'll keep my word about not drinkin,
though i may start smokin,
and i might be addicted to panadol pills,
but dont u worry,till the end,
i'll miss u still...

AsCOT:Hard Falls and Prank Calls(i left yr name out)

U tink I am a sore loser?
I tink u're a loser for calling me a loser.
In fact u're just some fuckin poser
Using wad i once told to u
Just so U can bring yr friends closer
In fact liking u was an error,
it seems so stupid now,
It's utter terror,
When People stare,
with all this rumors,
spreading in the air,
"Hey u noe yee kiat?
he like me before leh.
Dont tell anyone k"
Dont spread?
Dont act an angel,
WAIT......
Wad rhymes with angel
Oh yes her name is racheal
I wanna use vulgarities
To describe your atrocities.
can u blame me?
Its ez to see,
U'r not exactly pretty,
U'r not exactly nice,
I dont like u anymore,
and that isnt a lie.
U spread words bout me round,
U make me wanna cry,
I hoped u apologise,
Nah I'll wish u just die.
U get to spread it round,
so why cant i?
Stop callin my phone
U !!@#$
and fuckin leave me alone.

AsCOT: !@#$ yj and its "not so smart" Priciple

ok.. i'm gonna try to do this..
yo..
cann every one hear me?
here goes..

My life in yj is crap,
coz its really unfair,
i'm always gone in lectures,
coz i really aint there,
so i got my friends ta sign for me,
cept now they changed the rules,
y cant they just leave me be.
Not to worry people,
coz in this place,
if u'r 8 times late,
byebye, u'r gone mate.
so far, i got late 7,
i'm almost there,
GREAT now i can go to simei,
and learn cut hair.
speakin of hair, is my hair long?
the stupid priciple picks on me,
so i'm writin this song.
the corridors r FILLED with students wit long hair,
mine aint as long as theirs but,
"yijie go cut yr hair!"
!@$% crap...
Mann i told yall this place is unfair.
i hav to apologize to the priciple too
apprently,
coz i ignored her, when she's pickin on me.
WTH she so damn biased...
insisted we go to skool early,
then y she can arrive at 8.30.
wadeva... peop just book me.
THX alot,
Remember my name,
last nam thursday,
FIRST NAME 'Scot

The Words Without Rhymes 2(yijie ND AsCOT)

Dear Readers...
many thx for viewin my blog.. i reli means lots to me.. i donno who u reli are, except the peop who tagged but hey.. thx anyway. yeah.. i've been lamentin loads the last few dayz and yeah... i tink i'm like gettin depression or wadeva yeah.. i'm like kiddin lar.. i'm NOT bout to jump over a bridge just coz a Filipino maid (No offense) rejected me.. so dun worry.. in fact now that its May, i don see her name popin out all the time any more makin things easier to bare. In short thursday is comin to get his ricebowl back soon aka. start makin loud and stupid comments in lectures. Thx for readin my junk.

yijie: SICK

Life is annoying, i'm so tired. Day after day i watch myself screw up, wake up every to a class of people who smiles to each other and share exaggerated rumours and laugh about stuff that doesn't concern em. Go home to a empty house, quiet and alone. Till my dad comes back and screams at me over and over. A brother who doesnt give a shit. A sister tats spoilt, a mom tat takes sides. A God that doesnt bless me, a girl that doesnt like me. Friends who dont really care, A soul tat isnt really there.
I'm so SICK tonite.
i wanna just grab a knife,
Fuckin end my life.
I can spent 10 bucks payin a cab,
Rush to the skool gate,
and still end up late,
I do blame my fate,
I cant get a stead,
did i mention?
That i got detension,
it also wont be long before i get depression.
i bet it pleases u,
how badly i'm bleedin.
my dota is feedin,
my life is endin.
its my blog u'r readin,
but no one ever tags.
the blog count goes way up,
but the name of the reader lags.
or so i say,
yijie and thursday.
I'll fight on,
3 times as crazy 9 times as gay.

yijie: Infamous

In yj, i get nailed everyday,
why I'm running away,
afraid of wad people say.
"Oh look at Thursday...
he just so freakin gay."

"No he aint, he likes girls,
and is desperate.
YK sucks!
he ain't anyone's favourite."

"I heard he had switched many times..
He changes targets
as fast as he could write rhymes!!"

"he's scary, he chases and causes panic..
he hates God, goodness tat guy is Satanic."

SHUT UP!!
u stupid retards donno wad u'r tokin about.
u idiots must hav an ass as a mouth,
and tats y all this piles of crap comes out.
maybe its time that u found out,
i got rejected twice in yj,
and only switched once..
how to stick to someone,
when u'r not something she wants?
It's STUPID
i just wanna find an d strangle this cupid
everyday i see her,
i see pain,
its hard to stay focus,
my econs aint even the same..
we no longer talk.
it hurts alot.
sometimes i wanna fight on,
sometime i wish i get shot..
Daily i try to find where is she,
i cant ask,
I like her but she doesnt like me.
it continues to this very day.
yeah.. but i still don care wad u people say..

AsCOT: Wrong End of the gun

I try to make myself heard,
I try to memorise every word,
Coz all I ever wanted was,
for me not to get hurt.
Why do I always seem to be Knocked,
Or pushed,
Talk Cock
FUCK bush..
If an idiot can be a president,
What can a nut do in this incident?
Opps I killed someone, another accident,
Bush is a fool,
Hitler’s just crazy,
And Thursday completely outta his mind
Frekin out like a different kind
Point de rong end of the gun,
fires and still feel fine
being me iz juz lyke putting a big blind
losin everytin in de end

Forward: Words wiithout rhymes (yijie and AsCOT)

i started bloggin coz i tink its a nice place to write my poems..
i aint satanic no matter wad i say on this blog,
so relax.. nothin to worry bout larz..
dun take wad i say too seriously..
i'm a problem child,
wadeva i say here is purely for my entertainment and yr amusement..
i guess.. thx 4 readin this junk...

AsCOT: friday the 13th

Friday the 13th,
Was the day i went back to skool.
the pain still exist..
But do u feel it too?
I bet not..
No one ever does...
No one else keeps stuff like this in them, til they blow up,
No one ever noes how it was like for people like me growin up,
with the people who looks u in the face and lies,
to the people u love in yr life that dies.
But today is cool,
i had fun,
even though the two who turned me down are on the run,
opps, my dad just pissed me off again,
how am i to write about bein glad,
When half my life i spent bein mad?
its Sad.
And i do feel bad.
tat thursday himsef have to swear,
smash cake on the floor, yes i dare.
before i go nuts over wad to say
Dear Adrain,
happy birthday.

yijie: it's over, ain't it?

i do admit i'm sad,
yes, it does hurt bad.
how things have turned out this way.
i guess i went too fast
or i'm not good lookin enough to satisfy her lust
and it pains me to this very day.
i simply ignored signs and warnings she gave,
coz i had hoped against hope that her feelings would change,
but what cuts through me like a lance,
is the fact that she wont even give me a chance.
see for the past 3 weeks,
i could be screamin in pain for no end,
and all she could talk about is her lolipop man,
i continued anyways,
fought on even though i was clearly dying.
but her eyes told me to leave.
it was pure terror in her eyes,
like she was lookin at someone who was ruinin her life.
I'll never speak to her again,
as it brings both of us pain,
her eyes stuck to me like a wound that i glazed.
it hurts so much,
i don wanna go to skool for the next few dayz
we could never progress any more
it stops here.
After all that we did,
tell me dearest,
it's over, ain't it?

AsCOT: Daily horrors with the living

its funny how i can turn out like this,
from the head of the crowd to someone no longer missed.
compared to my 1st 3 months,
i feel weak now..
with all my !@#Xing problems,
i just wanna end life with a bow..
how can i BE strong?
wad have i done wrong?
questions i would like to ask.
LEt me ask GOD.
Dear GOD.
i gotta question thx alot,
if u love me so much,
y do i end up with so much pain?
YES? how did my life talents start turnin so faint?
how did GErmany in the world cup ever defeated Spain?
yes i noe my rhymes r gettin lame..
but wit my heart bleedin just how em i gonna keep my head
yes, MY Head IN THE GAME?
COZ i got used to gettin rejected.
i didnt care.
i gave a bigger damn about me losin my long hair
YEs i noe i love Tony Blair
wad em i sayin
woops i side track..
just more evidence bout my brains bein bout to crack..
yes no VUlgarites so wad the fack
liFE SUX
ND THIS AINT AN ACT...