yijie: it's over, ain't it?

i do admit i'm sad,
yes, it does hurt bad.
how things have turned out this way.
i guess i went too fast
or i'm not good lookin enough to satisfy her lust
and it pains me to this very day.
i simply ignored signs and warnings she gave,
coz i had hoped against hope that her feelings would change,
but what cuts through me like a lance,
is the fact that she wont even give me a chance.
see for the past 3 weeks,
i could be screamin in pain for no end,
and all she could talk about is her lolipop man,
i continued anyways,
fought on even though i was clearly dying.
but her eyes told me to leave.
it was pure terror in her eyes,
like she was lookin at someone who was ruinin her life.
I'll never speak to her again,
as it brings both of us pain,
her eyes stuck to me like a wound that i glazed.
it hurts so much,
i don wanna go to skool for the next few dayz
we could never progress any more
it stops here.
After all that we did,
tell me dearest,
it's over, ain't it?