yijie: SICK

Life is annoying, i'm so tired. Day after day i watch myself screw up, wake up every to a class of people who smiles to each other and share exaggerated rumours and laugh about stuff that doesn't concern em. Go home to a empty house, quiet and alone. Till my dad comes back and screams at me over and over. A brother who doesnt give a shit. A sister tats spoilt, a mom tat takes sides. A God that doesnt bless me, a girl that doesnt like me. Friends who dont really care, A soul tat isnt really there.
I'm so SICK tonite.
i wanna just grab a knife,
Fuckin end my life.
I can spent 10 bucks payin a cab,
Rush to the skool gate,
and still end up late,
I do blame my fate,
I cant get a stead,
did i mention?
That i got detension,
it also wont be long before i get depression.
i bet it pleases u,
how badly i'm bleedin.
my dota is feedin,
my life is endin.
its my blog u'r readin,
but no one ever tags.
the blog count goes way up,
but the name of the reader lags.
or so i say,
yijie and thursday.
I'll fight on,
3 times as crazy 9 times as gay.

yijie: Infamous

In yj, i get nailed everyday,
why I'm running away,
afraid of wad people say.
"Oh look at Thursday...
he just so freakin gay."

"No he aint, he likes girls,
and is desperate.
YK sucks!
he ain't anyone's favourite."

"I heard he had switched many times..
He changes targets
as fast as he could write rhymes!!"

"he's scary, he chases and causes panic..
he hates God, goodness tat guy is Satanic."

SHUT UP!!
u stupid retards donno wad u'r tokin about.
u idiots must hav an ass as a mouth,
and tats y all this piles of crap comes out.
maybe its time that u found out,
i got rejected twice in yj,
and only switched once..
how to stick to someone,
when u'r not something she wants?
It's STUPID
i just wanna find an d strangle this cupid
everyday i see her,
i see pain,
its hard to stay focus,
my econs aint even the same..
we no longer talk.
it hurts alot.
sometimes i wanna fight on,
sometime i wish i get shot..
Daily i try to find where is she,
i cant ask,
I like her but she doesnt like me.
it continues to this very day.
yeah.. but i still don care wad u people say..

AsCOT: Wrong End of the gun

I try to make myself heard,
I try to memorise every word,
Coz all I ever wanted was,
for me not to get hurt.
Why do I always seem to be Knocked,
Or pushed,
Talk Cock
FUCK bush..
If an idiot can be a president,
What can a nut do in this incident?
Opps I killed someone, another accident,
Bush is a fool,
Hitler’s just crazy,
And Thursday completely outta his mind
Frekin out like a different kind
Point de rong end of the gun,
fires and still feel fine
being me iz juz lyke putting a big blind
losin everytin in de end

Forward: Words wiithout rhymes (yijie and AsCOT)

i started bloggin coz i tink its a nice place to write my poems..
i aint satanic no matter wad i say on this blog,
so relax.. nothin to worry bout larz..
dun take wad i say too seriously..
i'm a problem child,
wadeva i say here is purely for my entertainment and yr amusement..
i guess.. thx 4 readin this junk...

AsCOT: friday the 13th

Friday the 13th,
Was the day i went back to skool.
the pain still exist..
But do u feel it too?
I bet not..
No one ever does...
No one else keeps stuff like this in them, til they blow up,
No one ever noes how it was like for people like me growin up,
with the people who looks u in the face and lies,
to the people u love in yr life that dies.
But today is cool,
i had fun,
even though the two who turned me down are on the run,
opps, my dad just pissed me off again,
how am i to write about bein glad,
When half my life i spent bein mad?
its Sad.
And i do feel bad.
tat thursday himsef have to swear,
smash cake on the floor, yes i dare.
before i go nuts over wad to say
Dear Adrain,
happy birthday.

yijie: it's over, ain't it?

i do admit i'm sad,
yes, it does hurt bad.
how things have turned out this way.
i guess i went too fast
or i'm not good lookin enough to satisfy her lust
and it pains me to this very day.
i simply ignored signs and warnings she gave,
coz i had hoped against hope that her feelings would change,
but what cuts through me like a lance,
is the fact that she wont even give me a chance.
see for the past 3 weeks,
i could be screamin in pain for no end,
and all she could talk about is her lolipop man,
i continued anyways,
fought on even though i was clearly dying.
but her eyes told me to leave.
it was pure terror in her eyes,
like she was lookin at someone who was ruinin her life.
I'll never speak to her again,
as it brings both of us pain,
her eyes stuck to me like a wound that i glazed.
it hurts so much,
i don wanna go to skool for the next few dayz
we could never progress any more
it stops here.
After all that we did,
tell me dearest,
it's over, ain't it?

AsCOT: Daily horrors with the living

its funny how i can turn out like this,
from the head of the crowd to someone no longer missed.
compared to my 1st 3 months,
i feel weak now..
with all my !@#Xing problems,
i just wanna end life with a bow..
how can i BE strong?
wad have i done wrong?
questions i would like to ask.
LEt me ask GOD.
Dear GOD.
i gotta question thx alot,
if u love me so much,
y do i end up with so much pain?
YES? how did my life talents start turnin so faint?
how did GErmany in the world cup ever defeated Spain?
yes i noe my rhymes r gettin lame..
but wit my heart bleedin just how em i gonna keep my head
yes, MY Head IN THE GAME?
COZ i got used to gettin rejected.
i didnt care.
i gave a bigger damn about me losin my long hair
YEs i noe i love Tony Blair
wad em i sayin
woops i side track..
just more evidence bout my brains bein bout to crack..
yes no VUlgarites so wad the fack
liFE SUX
ND THIS AINT AN ACT...