yijie: The Dark Dark Walls..

As i opened my weary eyes,
Lookin at the Dark Dark Walls,
And as i muttered every line.
I looked in to the mirror,
To clear my badly twisted mind.
The guy who stared back,
Thursday looked ready to crack,
It ends tonite,
He said,
The day it all died.

Its pointless i replied,
I have lost all will to fight.

YK u suck.
U screw up and blame yr luck.

Shut up.
It aint my fault at all,
Is it my fault if everyone wants me to fall?

YK, trust me u will succeed never more.

FUCK!
as i shattered the mirror all over the floor

The immense hate that filled
these empty Dark, Dark Walls,

"never more" He said again
My my brain churned to form new pain.
The same pain that seemed to drive me insane.
she hates me.
Or at least does not like me or thursday.
Today is special,
But i'm not wishin happy bday.
It will end tonite.
Like he said,
the day it all died.
I will not give her this call.
I was lost,
Between These Dark Dark Walls.

"Never more" He repeated.
As the blades of the night cut me,
And i bleeded.
My whole life,
I have never failed this badly.
have all i hav done so far just be folly?
Am i just a screwup in reality?
Or r these just words of my split personalities.
what will life after her have install?
Questions,
As i sat alone in these Dark, Dark Walls.














ok. 127. This is my highly anticipated reply. i already said i don hate all of u, just a number. I want to thank the taggers and the person who typed the speech in the class blog which had disappeared for some reason. anyway, u peop r not the peop i hav problems wit. i noe u guys mean well though. i reli don noe wad else to say so i will end here.

thx for readin my junk.

Public service announcement

I got somethin to say. I just realised who prank called me, and its not the click that i thought it was so sorry. i just flamed the wrong peop. pai sei, as for tat prank calling idiot whose name i will not mention, amber kindly TELL ME u prank called next time u prank call me. thank u amber much appreciated.

yijie: Miss Leong

Alot of people ask me... What do i miss in marist stella.. Nothin.. Nothin is left there for me.. My friends have moved on, I had no feelings for the school, I hated my life there. I hate the teaching staff.. no,,,.. I hated almost all of the teaching stuff.. all but one.. But she left.. Up till today i still remembered her death, i upseted her, and i hated myself for it. Maybe thats y today, i still remain this morbit. Miss leong.. I'll miss u. This poem is 4 u...

My drinkin habit caused it to happen,
As i brought wine to school to play,
i didnt mean for it to happen,
how did things turn out this way.
As i looked back on the biggest regret of my life,
I really dont know what to say.
the very way u left me,
on my 15th birthday.
Y did u have to go?
it was so sudden,
i never really healed from that blow,
as my soul remained burdened.
was it the heart attack that wendy told me,
or was the cause of yr death really just me?
I'm really sorry,
i didnt mean it,
i would hav given anything,
for a chance to change it.
as i go to yr urn tear after tear,
i'll ponder,
how u once told me god will take u to havean,
Clear after Clear,
right now though,
i tink i hav made god mad,
fear after fear,
that i wont see u again in eternalty,
coz i maght be goin to hell,
but i'll miss u lots
dear after dear,
day after day,
month after month,
year after year.
i regret not apologising when i had the chance,
i hope u noe just how i feel.
if only u stayed a little more,
dear teacher,
the only lady i adore,
i'll keep my word about not drinkin,
though i may start smokin,
and i might be addicted to panadol pills,
but dont u worry,till the end,
i'll miss u still...

AsCOT:Hard Falls and Prank Calls(i left yr name out)

U tink I am a sore loser?
I tink u're a loser for calling me a loser.
In fact u're just some fuckin poser
Using wad i once told to u
Just so U can bring yr friends closer
In fact liking u was an error,
it seems so stupid now,
It's utter terror,
When People stare,
with all this rumors,
spreading in the air,
"Hey u noe yee kiat?
he like me before leh.
Dont tell anyone k"
Dont spread?
Dont act an angel,
WAIT......
Wad rhymes with angel
Oh yes her name is racheal
I wanna use vulgarities
To describe your atrocities.
can u blame me?
Its ez to see,
U'r not exactly pretty,
U'r not exactly nice,
I dont like u anymore,
and that isnt a lie.
U spread words bout me round,
U make me wanna cry,
I hoped u apologise,
Nah I'll wish u just die.
U get to spread it round,
so why cant i?
Stop callin my phone
U !!@#$
and fuckin leave me alone.

AsCOT: !@#$ yj and its "not so smart" Priciple

ok.. i'm gonna try to do this..
yo..
cann every one hear me?
here goes..

My life in yj is crap,
coz its really unfair,
i'm always gone in lectures,
coz i really aint there,
so i got my friends ta sign for me,
cept now they changed the rules,
y cant they just leave me be.
Not to worry people,
coz in this place,
if u'r 8 times late,
byebye, u'r gone mate.
so far, i got late 7,
i'm almost there,
GREAT now i can go to simei,
and learn cut hair.
speakin of hair, is my hair long?
the stupid priciple picks on me,
so i'm writin this song.
the corridors r FILLED with students wit long hair,
mine aint as long as theirs but,
"yijie go cut yr hair!"
!@$% crap...
Mann i told yall this place is unfair.
i hav to apologize to the priciple too
apprently,
coz i ignored her, when she's pickin on me.
WTH she so damn biased...
insisted we go to skool early,
then y she can arrive at 8.30.
wadeva... peop just book me.
THX alot,
Remember my name,
last nam thursday,
FIRST NAME 'Scot

The Words Without Rhymes 2(yijie ND AsCOT)

Dear Readers...
many thx for viewin my blog.. i reli means lots to me.. i donno who u reli are, except the peop who tagged but hey.. thx anyway. yeah.. i've been lamentin loads the last few dayz and yeah... i tink i'm like gettin depression or wadeva yeah.. i'm like kiddin lar.. i'm NOT bout to jump over a bridge just coz a Filipino maid (No offense) rejected me.. so dun worry.. in fact now that its May, i don see her name popin out all the time any more makin things easier to bare. In short thursday is comin to get his ricebowl back soon aka. start makin loud and stupid comments in lectures. Thx for readin my junk.